today's entry is just to update on both FRIDAY and SATURDAY.

FRIDAY:
i went to meet my gegerl.
hehe.
i was just sooooo happy to meeet her.
she's the reason i smiled everyday.

we chill at the void deck.
and we fetch his son,her nephew to be precise.
then i went off to work.

as usual, it aches my heart to even leave her.

SATURDAY:
i went to my grandfather's house at JOHOR.
hehe.
i get to let out my love to my grandfather.
did the usual stuff.

and when i on my way home,
i received a SMS saying that my gegerl is at DANGA BAY.
haha.
no chance of meeting.
nvm.

we then SMSed each other.
till SAHUR.

and then, here i am blogging.



BYEZZZZ..
time to pray n SLEEEEEP..
ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

i was sleepy....
n i feel like DYING....
i am soooooooooooooo TIRED!!!!!
unlike yesterdae where im HYPER!!!!!!!

but my mind cant stop thinkig of her....
eventhough how tired i am..

btw, she actually messaged me to tell MISS CALL her when the AZAN was played on the radio...
but due to the fact that my battery when flat..
i cant miss call her and received her message when i switch on my handphone...
haiz..
SORRY DEAR.

i dont want to blog about class today..
because it's like usual..
but only the minority is making a whole lot of noise..
and im OBVIOUSLY included..
if you know my nature..

the point of me blogging today is to blog about me..
i feeel so goddamn bored ever since i can no longer interact and communicate with her..
its like i have not fulfilled a very important thing in my routine life..
but i just dont know what the *THING* is..
haiz..

everytime i daydream is all about her..
my mind keep wandering..
wondering how is she doing everyday..
how is she today..?
are there any problems she faced but doesnt want to tell me..?
I MISS HER TERRIBLY!!!!!

i just feel that the love grows as days pass..
previously, i always said that my relationship with her will never last..
but now, i want this relationship to last..
LIKE FOREVER..

haiz..
haiz..
YAWNs....
bigger YAWNs....

i slept at 1 am in the morning..
woke up at 5am, i suppose..
den ate sahur..

after eating, my stoach is sour...
very very sour..

then i wait for my sis to finish bathing..
i then bathe at 5 plus nearing 6am..
haiz..

i need to send her to hospital..
for her blood test, i suppose..

nvm bout dat..

what makes me pissed off is the fact that there are no taxi seen...
dammit!!!!!
we waited till 6.28am..
till i decided to break up to look for a taxi elsewhere..
i was in gd luck as the taxi arrived when i stepped on the cemented path...

fortunately, my sis is not late..
phew..!!!!

i waited with her till 7 plus..
she then decieded to walk with me..
bt i walk to the mrt alone..
i took the train at 8.01am..

n i was almost late to school..
haiz..

cognitive is killing me...
ARGH...

*today is the start that i cant conact her till 6th Nov..
hope im strong ...
help me GOD..
i noe u are always beside me..
in times of happiness and sorrows..

Labels: PATHETICALLY tired

YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!

im just happy...
get to let out all my love to her...

but ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
because i only get to see her on the 6th november...
after her O levels..

nvm...
i just pray for her success...
and that our relationship wil last...
AMIN...

*i will remember all that you've done for me and the relationship
and the kisses that we had...

*love you..
i am going to miss you lotz..
sob sob...

hope that after the pause this time, our love will grow....

today is a FINE day...
away from any disturbance and disruption...
im FREEEEEE...

n if u wana know,
i am at PASIR RIS ryte now...
blogging while waiting for her to come DOWN!!!!!!

gonna beakfast together with her...
not sure where...
but for sure its gonna be somewhere...
haha..

Labels: GOOD

i love her..
i really do..
but somehow i just feel she is different now..
thinking about this seriously makes me want to cry..
to be frank, i am indeed crying.

she is no longer the same..
i sometimes wonder if her love for me has faded..
but if it does, she would have told me personally..

i am trying to change for the better..
for the sake of the relationship and her that i loved so much..
.....

i just cant stop crying now...


sorry i am going to blog in malay now..


Sehari tidak ku berhubung denganmu,

terasa diri ku kehilangan,

dan membuat hidup ku tidak sempurna,

seperti si buta kehilangan tongkatnya.

Pabila ia berubah menjadi seminggu,

hati ku terseksa,

perasaan ku meradang entah mengapa.


amat ku mencintai dirimu..
tapi apakan daya ku..

Labels: i guess..., problems with relationship

haiz...
haiz...
my 1st day in W14P is VERY NOT OK..

but i actually managed to make 3 new friends...

1.alvin
2.pang SOMETHNG-SOMETHING
3.cheryl

and in my group for today consist of 3 china peeps.
1 male and 2 female.
and 1 singaporean lady, i suppose.
all of them are so damn quiet.

seriously, most chinese students in my class are from China.

PITY ME!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: First day in W14P

again..
i am being EMO today.
i am soo sad to leave her.
but i have to.
haiz.


yesterday when she cried while hugging me,
i felt like crying too.
but i have tobe strong in front of her.
but i failed when i reached the busstop.
i cried non-stop.
haiz.

Labels: sad dae

i a feeling so down.
i got no mood to open mouth and talk.

but i feel like shouting at anyone who talks to me right now.
i just cant keep my cool.

the fire in me is raging.
it's burning.